Goddess Hekate
I am She
that is the natural
mother of all things,
mistress and governess
of all the elements,
the initial progeny of worlds,
chief of the powers divine,
Queen of all that are in the otherworld,
the principal of them
that dwell above,
manifested alone
and under one form
of all the Gods and Goddesses.
Lucius
Apuleius
(c. 123 – c. 170 CE)
Tracks Of My Mind
Fall Harvest Sale!
C’mere
sweet one’s. Allow me to grab your mind as you find yourself
taking advantage of My Fall Harvest Sale!
Buy
one and get one of equal or lesser value for free.
All you need to do is put the title of the free one in the
comment box of your order.
Wacky Days and Wacky Nights
back, and my thyroid levels are too high, so once again they have to
change my medication. It does explain why I have been wanting
to bite at everyone. A few years ago I went in for surgery to
get my thyroid partially removed. I have what is called
Graves Disease. The name comes from the man that discovered
it I guess, but still what a gloomy name of a disease. Well,
back to the surgery. When they cut my throat open, the doctor
had never seen such a messed up thyroid and instead of taking part of
it out, he removed the whole thing. So now I have to take
medication for the rest of my life in order to make my body function
properly.
I knew my levels
were off just by the way I was feeling and also certain symptoms that
are common for me were taking place. Although the passing out
and hitting my head was a new one LOL. I do believe I hit a
record high though with telling people to fuck off.
<frown> When your heart is racing,
and your moods are touchy, it actually was quite easy to say fuck off.
Is that normally like me? No. Do I regret who I
said it to? No. I am normally much more calm, and
pretty much let trivial things pass by.
Some of you have
been wondering why I have been a bit more quiet than usual, well part
of this is why. I am afraid I will end up saying something I
will regret, and most likely said in a highly emotional state.
I was quite
surprised though, my doctor actually called me himself. He is
unrealistically busy and I found it odd he called me himself, and not
the nurse. He did have a bit of concern in his voice and
explained a few things, and I started laughing and said yeah I know
(mostly about what can/has happened with chemical changes and how it
effects my health)
I did at one time
look into alternative replacement thyroid herbs, or combination, but
all have ingredients that I am allergic to, so that option is out.
I guess I will just stick it out with the synthroid, and go
back again in 6wks to get my blood drawn again, and hopefully over the
next six weeks things will level out. It has to be better
than it was though, my blood pressure is back down almost to where it
normally is, and my pulse rate has lowered.
Anyway, enough
about cutting throats and thyroids lol……I am off to work.
New Addition To The Family
is my new addition to the family. Her name is luna, short for
lunacy of having three yorkies. She is 2 lbs. and a complete
ball of fire. I absolutely adore her. She is going
to be smaller than my other yorkies, and is very smart (thank goodness).
She is so much more fiesty than my males were when I got them, and
several people have said welllll, that’s a female for you lol
I know I have to be strict with her until she is trained,
though it is so easy to just want to love her up all the time, and hard
to discipline her because she is so little……..but………I prefer
well trained dogs that listen, so I will stick to my guns with her
until she is trained. She has learned quite a bit in a short
amount of time already, so I know she will do well.
I love watching how the other two yorkies interact with her, my oldest
pretty much ignores her, and she plays hard with the middle one, but
every now and then the oldest puts his foot down and makes her submit,
just to keep it clear it’s his domain and he rules. They give
me so much laughter.
Sleep, Thoughts, Dreams
run a nice hot bath, sinking slowly into it’s warmth as my skin adjusts
to the temperature of the water. The deeper I slide down, the
more relaxed each muscle becomes, until that overwhelming feeling of
wanting, or is it needing to close my eyes just seems to consume me, as
I slide even deeper down into the relaxing pool of water, and as the
water soothingly rises up over my ears and caressing my face, it’s
quite easy to simply lose yourself in thoughts and dreams, hearing the
different sounds underwater that seem to make everything else vanish,
as you find yourself floating in the warmth of your mind. You
might even allow your mind to slide so deep inside to places that calm
and soothe your soul, just as the warmth of the water calms and soothes
your body. Your body becomes weightless floating there, as
your mind becomes weightless when you allow all stress, tensions, and
worries to simply vanish, while you enjoy floating there deep in the
warmth of thoughts and dreams of pleasant things. Some people
have very secret places they visit inside this warm, soothing place,
while others have vivid, and clear visions that float so easily in
place as you feel the comfort and calmness of your place deep inside.
So relaxing, so
content as only you can think and dream of how much of this place you
want to feel, so deeply inside allowing yourself the sweetness of
where you are and what is just perfect for you to enjoy this
time to relax and feel the soothing calmness of mind, while the body
continues to float in the warmth so deep. Now, you can let
your mind seek and search for there are many wonderful places to
explore, yet when you do seek and explore this wonderful state of mind,
you might notice how you do become more relaxed as you do that, or even
think about it now going deeper inside to where a person can find
fulfillment in your thoughts and dreams, while at the same time you can
allow answers you have been seeking to form so clearly in this state of
sweet relaxation. You can begin to recognize as those
thoughts become dreams, or dreams become thoughts of awareness where
something you need answered becomes so vividly clear when you do relax
into your perfect place, allowing the warm calmness to soothe your mind
and body again and again, or is it again you will find the answer or
answers when you do seek deeply.
Hypnoticon 08
Ok, it’s official, I just booked my reservation for Hypnoticon, and will be there Thursday evening through Sunday afternoon. I look forward to seeing those of you who are planning on attending.
~curious how many people will I bite~
How Long Is Too Long To Wait
I am still waiting as the leaves fall around me,
just as you said I should do.
Wait…wait…wait
Do I wait until the snow falls,
do I wait for weakness to overtake me?
How long shall I wait?
Forever and a day?
The squirrels are gathering their food for the winter,
as I sit, watch and wait.
How long is too long to wait?
